You never knew
Inside your crusted shell
How much I've thought of you
How much I've missed your
Hoarse laughter
How much I've misplaced
Our fractured memories
As to keep them from adding up
Into your image.
How much I've searched for you
In other faces
And gestures
And spirits
And how I’d always find you
In strangers' eyes
And their translucent vicinity.

I've watched you slowly
Dissipate into haze
With dark clusters of rage
And hatred and betrayal
Escorting your way
I've reached for you
So many times
My hands have become wet
And my heart all damp
But you've always slipped away
And let yourself be flushed
From me through rain and gale.
I've felt you even through
The walls you put around
Your fragile birdish core
And I still keep
Your nest high up my sleeve.

Aleksandra Kocmut - Kerstin